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Low? am I, I think yes.

Am feeling quite low today and like most such times, I have no clue as to what’s wrong. Have no work to do in a long time now, I should love this but I am not. May be I am missing home but that is so almost always so that should not make a difference, missing IIT/friends? Can't be, I never do. Can't comprehend what’s troubling me which is further adding to my irritation.

Had a dream last morning, made me extremely happy while I was asleep and made me scream and sulk after I woke up. Made me wish I could choose what dreams I have or at least what dreams I shouldn't. I thought I had left some good times behind and never cared to revisit them but yesterday the times were brought back to life while all life ought to be asleep. Not that I felt those times and longed for them but the memories did make me happy. What's wrong about sticking to memories that make you happy?!! May be its to avoid the realization of what has been lost that I want to get rid of memories.

Ah, I hate it when I fail to think clearly. Let me put this down straight: Going down the memory lane makes you happy but when you come back to your present the absence of the beautiful past makes you sad. Dilemma... dilemma....

An empty mind, the devil's workshop. I need to do some work, give me some work to do......... :O :O that’s the last thing I ought to be saying. Gosh! something is surely wrong with me :P